so sad........

i don't have an eloquent post today

no deep thoughts

no words of encouragement

no funny stories

just my thoughts first thing this morning it looks like we may need to cancel our july 4th trip to seaside

i wish i had a crystal ball
i wish i knew what to do

please don't send me hate mail
(not that anyone ever has...)
but i am well aware of the bigger picture here
men lost their lives in the explosion
the impact on the ocean life & coastal wildlife is devastating
major economic loss for those whose income depends on tourism
overwhelming sadness....





the Lord gave me a heart for nursing
a heart made to take care of children, very sick children
but this heart can not take sad animal stories

i really can't
i can't look at the news
i can't see the images of the oil soaked pelicans






i would love to go to paris one day
i would love to travel to boston, seattle and new england
but truth be told
there's a little spot on the gulf coast
that i'm completely smitten with







the white sand & the crystal clear water
is my heaven on earth
if i never went any of those places
i'd be perfectly content with my yearly trips to the gulf shore





my first visit to Seaside was with Dan
on our honeymoon

we came back a couple months later with the girls
& have come back every year since






we love it here
we have our favorite restaurants
favorite shops
favorite beach things









i've been to plenty of beaches
but none as breathtaking as the beaches along the gulf

i'm not trying to be a big baby

or a self absorbed narcissist

but honestly pulling up these images

leaves me here with tears in my eyes

will the beach look like this again?

i know we can take our deposit & call it a loss

pack up & head elsewhere

i know that

but today i'm just feeling sad

& heartbroken

about the whole situation....