step one

yesterday i woke up with an awful headache.

went in & snuggled with caroline as i woke her up

wishing we didn't have to go to school and could stay in bed all day.

wrote my balance post.

ate yogurt & some yummy homemade granola

after finding out my cholesterol is high.

moments after pushing the publish button, received a call from a precious friend.

we shamefully admitted to each other

that we both haven't picked up our bibles in a while

& really spent time with the lord.

we cried about sending first borns off

& how our babies aren't really babies any more.

we shared about how thankful we are for loving & loyal hubby's.

how as mama's we long to have our families together

& whether its for good & happy things or not

it's just plain hard when one is gone.

we talked about the power of prayer

& having accountability.

my headache got worse

the computer was blurry 

and it was entirely too bright outside.

i climbed back in bed.

for hours.

spent most of the day there

& then climbed back in again after dinner.

i feel much better today

no more gosh awful headache.

but the truth is,

one of the main reasons i feel so off

i'm certain

is because i haven't been in the word.

i'm so ashamed to even admit that.

while my bible is laying right beside my computer

it's much easier for me to open my laptop

than to open the scriptures.

it apparantly is more important to see what others have to say to me

than what He does.

the other day, caroline picked up my 364 bible.

it's a great little paperback version that takes you through the scriptures

in chronological order in a year.

she said "mama, you left your book mark in april. want me to move it over to august for you?"

she was being totally sincere.

i'm an open book here on my blog

but i really want to be more intentional

about journaling with paper and pen.

there have been so many specific answers to prayer in the last several days

that if i don't write them down, i fear i'll forget them.

so

first step in operation find balance

is the obvious.

it was my new years goal months ago.

& apparantly, changing my diet

to fish, chicken and oatmeal

is step two.

wink.

ya'll have a great day!

~

Psalm 119:105

Your word is a lamp to guide my feet

and a light for my path