psyched out. maybe just a bit

 

 found

in 13 days dan & i head down to seaside,

my favorite place ,

for a quick breath of salty air

a quick dipping of our toes in the perfect white sand

eating shrimp at favorite restraunts

shopping at favorite stores

 and

oh yeah, 

running a half marathon.

in the next few days i have 72 miles to put in.

 i'll be honest,

today i'm feeling a tad psyched out.

i don't mean to be

i don't want to be

but the more i think about running that distance

the more i get a smidge 

well...

psyched out.

i have several friends who run half marathons.

they run them well

& seem to run them somewhat easily.

the last time i ran one,

i was half my current age.

i've been hearing that voice that says

what if this is it?

what if this is as good as i'll ever be?

what if i can't do it?

i know with any challenge 

much of the battle is a mental thing.

right now i'm just in a little mental slump 

& all i need is a giant dose of the "i can's!"

two weeks from this very moment

i'll be driving home,

hopefully with a big medal around my neck

a new vera tote ( all the marathon runners get both)

a funky new race t-shirt

  maybe a little sunkiss on my cheeks

& hopefully one jean size smaller--ha!

i'm hoping i wake up in the morning

all fired up

& back on top of my game again, 

trying not to look at the big picture

the big number

the total distance,

but just taking it 

one mile at a time.

period.