expensive time

 

decision making can be somewhat larger than life for me.

i weigh all the potential variables

i think through possible outcomes

i try to be responsible

yet leave room for surprises too.

i'm a realist 

and a dreamer.

i'm introspective

& extroverted.

i'm practical

yet so often in life, i love the impractical.

(please feel free to diagnose me with a personality disorder at this point)

for several months i've felt that i should resign from my current rn position at the children's hospital.

( significant decline in hours & other boring details)

years ago i went to school to take care of children with cancer.

that was my passion.

i thrived within the challenge of meeting the medical needs of those children

along with the emotional needs of both them & their families.

once gregg became sick, i left that job to stay home and take care of him.

i did return for a small time but found it very hard to work in a high acuity situation for the 

small amount of time i was actually available.

what i've done for the last 10 years isn't a passion of mine

but it was still in nursing.

( & for those of you who've asked, after being out of the clinical world for so many years,

it's virtually impossible to go back, much less be hired)

since that time i've developed a couple other passions.

things i would love to immerse myself in

& maybe even make some money at the same time.

last week i really spent some time soul searching

trying to make some big decisions.

i obviously highly respect my sweet husband

& i also highly respect my younger brother corey,

who happens to be president of his company.

both corey & dan gave me the exact same advice.

verbatim.

i laughingly asked my brother if he & dan had been secretly texting.

one of the things corey told me

is that the most expensive time in business

is the time between when you decide to do something

& when you actually do it.

the expense may not always be financial

it may even be mental energy spent.

while the above statement was regarding the business world,

i feel this principle applies to many areas in our lives.

i resigned from my current rn job.

i'm praying the Lord gives me direction on where to next.

for those of you who receive a paycheck for doing what you consider

your passion &your joy,

i know you consider yourself blessed.

my dream is to one day, do the very same thing...